Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Valentine...


There are very few love songs that mean much to me. Mostly because I see love as primarily something other people experience.

This song speaks to my heart. So on Valentine's Day this year I've decided to post the lyrics.

One of the things I love about Pink is how she writes about how it really feels to be a damaged girl reaching out for something sh's scared to want....





"Glitter In The Air"


Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands


Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted


Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air


Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"


It's only half past the point of no return


The tip of the iceberg


The sun before the burn


The thunder before the lightning


The breath before the phrase


Have you ever felt this way


Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone


You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone


Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry


Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside

It's only half past the point of oblivion


The hourglass on the table


The walk before the run


The breath before the kiss


And the fear before the flames


Have you ever felt this way


There you are, sitting in the garden

Clutching my coffee,


Calling me sugar


You called me sugar


Have you ever wished for an endless night


Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight


Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight


Tonight

Monday, February 06, 2012

Good Grief...





How long are we allowed to miss someone? Is there a time frame? Does moving on mean we let the sadness go?


I've lost many people in my life. Tent post people. The ones that hold you up and keep you steady. I'm not a depressed person, and I am enjoying my life. Yet there are moments when I miss these people so profoundly my heart clenches. 6 months, 7 years, 15 years. Time does not change how badly it hurts. I think this is normal. I refuse to believe that choosing to embrace heartache is bad for me.

Thursday, February 02, 2012

16 Years Later...

Who would have thought there could still be firsts? Just when I think It's impossible to shock or surprise me...

I'm going to sit calmly and reflect. I'm going to make peace with the fact that sometimes I am just a girl.